Part of this Mothers Day was hard for me. I had an emotional day and some of it was good emotional and some not so great. Yesterday was a very hard day for me as a parent. Both of my kids were not behaving at all, all afternoon and night. Jaydan was testing every limit possible and it got so bad he would look at me hurry and do something he knew was not right run and put himself in time out and just laugh the entire time. He had me in tears numerous times all day. Its days like that where I just feel so overwhelmed as a parent. I sometimes forget that you have to take the bad with the good in parenting. Its not all fun, joyful and happiness. When I have those kind of horrible days I try so hard to sit back, take a deep breathe and think of all the cute things that they do to make me happier then I have ever been and I try to remember the feeling I had when I thought Jaydans life could be at risk and that I would rather go through those bad days with him then to ever feel like I could loose him again.
On a happy note I feel so blessed to be Jaydan and Madysons mom. I dont know how I got so lucky to have these 2 but I thank the Lord everyday he chose me to be their mom. I never knew a love like this existed until I became a mom. I am so thankful for my 2 babies!! Sometimes I just look at them and cry because I love them so much and they bring me a kind of joy I cant even describe. These last 3 years since I became a mom have been the most amazing years of my life. I have learned so much about life, love and happiness. I just hope that as the years go by that my kids will always know and feel how much I love them!! They are the 2 greatest joys of my life. I love Kamrin for being apart of these 2 amazing children we created! We always jus sit and talk about how we cant believe how adorable our kids really are :-) We are both so proud of them both! I love Kamrin for the gift he gave me.... The chance to be a mother!!
Also Mothers Day gave me a chance to ponder on my own mom. I have always been close to my mom and always thought the world of her but it wasnt until I became a mom did I fully appreciate her the way I should have. My mom is one of the most amazing people I know. She is so strong and so kind. I know for a fact there is nothing she wouldnt do to help any of us kids and her grandchildren. I hope I am half the mom she is. I feel so privileged to be her daughter. She is a true example of the kind of person I want to be. I know no matter what I do my mom is one person I can go to and not be judged. My mom has shown me what unconditional love is. Even now that Im an adult, married and have kids of my own I still look to my mom for advice and the extra love I need on those difficult days. Mom I want you to know that I love you with all my heart and I am so thankful for you everyday!! Thank you for being the best mom and best friend to me. I love you mom!!!
Also I want to express my gratitude for my mother in law. She has shown me so much love since I joined her family. I can see in her eyes how much she truly loves my kids and I am so thankful my kids have people to love them like that. I am so blessed to have a mother in law that would also do anything for her children and their families. She has helped us out so much in our times of need and I know that if we ever were in need of anything she would be one of the first there to help in anyway possible. Tamera thank you for all you do for us. My children are so lucky to have a grandma that shows her love for them constantly even just by the way you look at them. I love you and Im very thankful to you and for you!!!
I have many more mother figures in my life that I would love to talk about but that would take FOREVER so to all the women in my life that have made any kind of impact in my life I want to thank you and you have a very special place in my heart. I am a very blessed person to have such wonderful people in my life!!!
Now for how I spent my Mothers Day. We went to Sacrament which was a good program. We then came home to hurry and get the kids a nap because we would be gone the rest of the day and I knew if we wanted to enjoy all our day our kids would need a nap! We went to lunch at Kamrins grandmas house and spent time with his family for a few hours then head to my aunts house to spend time with my family. It was nice to be around loved ones all day! A while after we got home Shaless and Jared came over and Jay and Maddie were being so cute and funny. Jaydan showed Maddie how to do Ring Around The Rosies and she giggled the entire time! It was so great to see them having fun together.
I hope you all had a wonderful Mothers Day!!
Showing her how to get started
Having a blast!!
This was a great way to end Mothers Day!!