Today was full of emotion for me. This morning was so overwhelming of fear and worry. We went to meet with the surgery to hear the biopsy results and so he could check on Jaydans cheek. We got there at 10:15am and we got right back. At this point I was ready to throw up!! He came in and my heart was beating so hard! He said its a blah blah blah blah blah HUGE word :-) Then came Ashley talk. Basically its a non cancerous tumor!! WOW at that exact moment 5 million pounds of stress, worry, fear and all emotions like that just lifted off my shoulders! I woke up from my 2 month long nightmare!! Mine along with everyone elses prayers was answered!! I looked at my amazing and brave little boy and for the first time in 2 months knew he was going to be just fine!! I can not tell you how I felt at that moment. Just thinking about it makes me cry. Happy tears of course! I feel so blessed and so grateful! These past 2 months have been a huge eye opener to me. I now see how fast life can just change and how precious every single second is. I will now hug my kids more, kiss them more and tell them I love them none stop. As for my little Jaydan I have never been such a proud mom!! He has been so tough and sooooo brave!! After what he went through and the pain he had he knew we were going to the doctor today and he was all smiles and no fear whatsoever!! Im so proud of him.
Mommy is sooo proud of you! You are the bravest little boy! Im so happy you are healthy! You and your sister mean the world to me and I dont know what I would do without you! Im so glad things will only look up for you from here. I cant wait to see what life brings you. You are an amazing little boy with such a special spirit that truly touches everyone who meets you. You lighten up the room and you know how to make me smile when Im sad. I just love you more then I could ever tell you. I feel truly honored to be your mom. Thank you for being you!!
Love you little man,
I would really like to thank you all who have supported, showed your love, prayed for us and gave us encouraging words!! I was also shown what amazing people I have in my life!! I really appreciate it more then you will ever know! I want to thank my Heavenly Father for carrying us through the last 2 months and thank you for walking Jaydan through this and making him so brave. I know I have a LONG prayer to say tonight to show my gratitude. Now that I can no longer see through the tears I just want to say thank you all again!!